Monday, September 29, 2008

Moving On...

It's hard for me to say good-bye. I'm sure there are several psychological reasons why it is, but for now I'm just gonna focus on the fact that it is simply hard for me to say good-bye. And not just to people, but places, stages in life, etc. Recently I have been bothered with where I am at in life and how I long to go back to this particular time in my life. I long for this time for many different reasons. It's not for any particular person. It's just everything good that was about that "stage" to me. But I can't go back. There is no such thing as a magic time machine and I know that God wants me to live in the now. But I long for certain things in that time period. I feel like a death has over taken me since then and it was so long ago. I'm not sure how to quite move forward. It's like when college ends...all those years with friends are over and it's just a memory. Well tonight was particularly hard for me as I pondered this certain time in my life. I cried to return to it...as wierd as that sounds. But then I got a text message. Just a simple text message and it steered me straight. It was a 2 page text message from one particular, former Young LIfe kid of mine. This boy accepted Christ at our Bible Study with me and another leader this past year. He's recently graduated though and has found himself in a tough spot. He called me lastnight and I met with him today and reminded him that God had not left him, although he had left God. I then sent him off to a college Bible Study with another YL leader of mine. Well, just now he text me and told me how the message tonight was just for him, like it was at Young Life the night he accepted Christ with me. And that he feels alive again now and cried like he never has before and that he was so grateful to me. That simple text message was a reminder from God that I'm right where I need to be. The time I long for was special to me and always will be. But I have to move on. I have to enjoy where I am with God now. I have to be here for those text messages that I just received. That is what we're here for anyways. To glorify God. And me longing to go back to a place that is meant to stay in my past is not glorifying God. So I hold myself accountable to you, blog world, as I have decided to move forward. I need to move forward. To take what I have learned in my past with me into the future...into the now. And I know that my God has great plans for me! May this death of my past bring a resurrected and glorious future! Good night friends! I'm ready for HIs mew mercies tomorrow morning! Great is His faithfulness! :)

1 comment:

theBirkenfelds said...

We are so alike in so many ways, and here is one more. I know exactly how you feel Corrie, I always thought I was the only one. It is weird how I will long for times of the past.. for a reason I can never put my finger on, but I do. I will sit and think and day-dream and let my thoughts consume me. We can hold each other accountable. :) I love you oh so much! Thanks for sharing.