Friday, March 13, 2009

A good day

Prepare for a marathon of a run-on sentence....My bible lays open on my lap; a cup of hot, yummy coffee sits on my desk to my left; my belly is full from all the yummy junk that I ate at the fun rodeo the night before; I am also reveling in the joy of the day that I got foster parenting a baby chihuahua yesterday; I'm also sore from working out yesterday (I love that feeling); rose scented candles are burning; only the dim lights of my lamps are lighting my way on this dreary day; the window's open as I watch it lightly rain; the only noise I hear is the rain and birds chirping a beautiful song (including my Woodstock); I see 2 cardinals out my window (which for some reason aren't only extremely beautiful to me, but also so represent Jesus to me); my dogs are quiet (only b/c they are eating my shoes...but I'll let it slide so I can have some quiet); I have no where to be in a hurry any time soon; and all the world is still, peaceful, and quiet before me...Aahh...Pure bliss!!!! I love occasional days like this! I love them! Jesus and I are having a moment and I just had to share it with you! :) He is speaking to me on how to fight for your God-given destiny! There is such balance in it. But don't we all sadly struggle with balance? I know that I do. You see, we can just rest in the fact that God fights for us and do nothing. But then we lose sight of the fact that there is in fact a roaring lion of an enemy seeking to destroy us so we must stay on guard. But then how do you stay on guard without losing sight of the fact that the battle is the Lord's. I think I came to a bit of an understanding during my quiet morning, and all from the great book of Deuteronomy. You see, Deuteronomy 33:26-29 (and Psalm 35:10, etc.) speaks of God Majestically coming to our aid! And then you have Deuteronomy 5:32 & 33 which speaks of what you are called to do! (with props to Proverbs 31 devotional and Beth Moore's, Praying God's Word devotional.) Here is what I think (at least this is how it happened with me somewhat.) After you have accepted Christ, I believe that God gives us a grace period in our "mountain-top high" as we discover who He is and who we are in Him. But then, of course, the enemy comes trying to nag us with our flesh patterns, and we begin discovering just how in need of a Savior we really are. So the battle hits and we begin the purifying process. As we mature more, we begin to look more like Him and understand a bit more, but we also grow tired. But the thing is, the enemy is using only the same old tricks. He is not as clever as we give him credit for. If you just take a look at your family line, you will see the same things that he likes to use over and over, It's generational sin and it must be stopped! But how? That is where I find myself today. I am mostly aware of the webs of generational sins that the enemy has weaved through out my family lines and I have fallen prey to. I have broken free from many...To the glory of God! However, there are some that I feel I will never be free from. And I woke up the other morning realizing that I had forgotten that the enemy didn't want me too. I had given up and forgotten that our struggle isn't against flesh and blood, but against the ruler of the air...our enemy. I was mad at my family, not him. But then I quickly remembered that not only am I fighting the wrong people, but that verse which says, "Judge, and you too will be judged." So true...ouch! What will judging them get me? The same thing that they have now...still the the noose of the stronghold, but held with a bitter heart. I want something different! And I am no different than them! So, I thought, "I can't fight. Fight for me Lord." And then I found myself in a world of defeat as I lay there. I have to take up my sword too. The thing is, I got a shield and His name is Jesus! As Deut. 5 states, walk in God's ways, don't turn to the right or to the left. Well, I had been relying on other refuges. I was allowing the enemy to distract me. God alone is my refuge and He has given me everything I need for life and Godliness! I have hidden His Word in my heart that I might not sin against Him. So I have a choice to make, dating all the way back to the Garden (thanks for the reminder, Mary Ann)...Choose each day...Life or Death. And with each choice you make towards life, God will fight for you. Like Job....it was after he prayed for his friends and chose God that God stepped in and (for the most part) said, "Ok, enough enemy! He is mine and I will take care of him." Amen! I am ready! Wow...this was a lot. But I think it is the start to my book. We shall see...

3 comments:

Corrie's Blog said...

HE is our refuge. I am so glad that you are learning this!

Corrie's Blog said...

Ryan, stopping writing me comments from my account freak!

Manda said...

hahaha

love ya corrie